�Hello?�
�This is a collect call from��

If you�ve ever made a collect call, you know how they ask you to record your name, so at this point this person�s voice comes on the line...

��..Rick (in the guy�s voice) from the Middlesex County Prison.�

GAAHHH!! At this point, I hang up the phone. WTF? So did �Rick� just f�k up his one phone call by dialing a wrong number or did this person intend to call me? So I�m freaking out all night wondering who this �Rick� is and how did he get my number.

I checked out the phone number online and it�s a New Jersey number. I don�t live in New Jersey. When �Rick� gets out of prison is he going to come looking for me, because I didn�t accept his phone call? Freaky�.

I work in a very business-like, conservative environment. I�m not the typical �business� type. I�m not conservative. I do the wearing the suits, being business-like thing, because I have to, but I don�t like it.

I would like to work in a creative, dynamic industry. Music, fashion, entertainment. Cutting edge and hip. That�s what I need. Or is it?

I still wonder what would have happened if I would have taken the store manager job, when I lived in Pittsburgh. When my husband and I moved to Pittsburgh, I was offered a job as a store manager at this upscale boutique. In this position, I would have gone to New York every few months to buy the clothes for the store. Also, the owner of this store was friends with Nichole Miller. I would have gotten to meet Nichole Miller, would have gotten designer clothes straight from New York. But, according to my husband, the job was too far away from Pitt where he was getting his masters. Instead I got a job at Pitt, so I could get his education paid for.

The job where I�m at now is safe and stable. I have a daughter to think about. I need health care and a 401(k). To get a job like I want means moving. It means taking a risk. Is that being selfish?